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Sep. 20th, 2017 01:01 pm
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My trip to the airport turned into a bit of a saga last night, and we didn't get to bed until after midnight. I left home earlyish, while it was still daylight, because I don't like driving in the dark, but even in the daylight I got semi lost trying to find my way through the multi-storey carpark out into the open air section where we both prefer to park. There are gates directly into the open air section but they seem to never be used any more so you have to wind your way through the underground part and go up a level to get outside. (Then when you leave you have to do the same thing in reverse. We both find it confusing because of the change of levels.)

However, I got to the airport well ahead of the plane landing and sat around reading my book for a while. The baggage carousels were deserted for a long time, then suddenly around 9 pm it seemed like at least half a dozen planes all arrived within a few minutes of each other and there were people everywhere. It's only a small airport though, so none of the incoming planes were huge and most of the carousels were cleared in just a few minutes. S's plane landed around 9:20 and we were leaving the airport soon after 10 I think.

We were very lucky with our train connections and didn't have to wait more than 5 minutes or so at either of our stops, but we were worried we would have to wait for a later train at our downtown connection as there had been a concert or something and our platform was jammed. We didn't want to have to wait as trains were running at 20 to 25 minute intervals due to track work, and luckily when the train arrived the crowds were miraculously absorbed into it and there was room for us plus S's large bag.

Of course I had trouble falling asleep after such an active evening. It felt like my body just couldn't relax for at least an hour after we turned off the light; various patches of skin got itchy and my right leg just could not get comfortable no matter what position I lay in. Then suddenly around 1:15 am I felt myself get completely relaxed, my leg got comfortable, and I fell asleep. After only about 5 hours sleep I feel surprisingly good.

Edit: I drove from home to the nearest metro station and then took two trains, one to downtown and then a connecting one out to the airport just across the river from downtown. In spite of the carpark confusion, this is a much less stressful way to go than driving to the airport.

Nursing Vs. Counseling

Sep. 19th, 2017 11:33 pm
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I think instead I'd rather do nursing and social work, with some counseling training.

I've been reading up on it and apparently a lot of rehabilitation therapies are not seen as particularly scientifically sound.

I'm wondering why, for instance, the facilities in these areas (no specific one) don't focus on anti-opiods such as naltrene over the Twelve-Step program, which have scientifically sound evidence that they are effective against addiction. Apparently the USA is far far behind other developed countries in their approach to addiction.




In learning about all of this, I'm going to try taking Contrave this year and see if it helps me stop binge-eating. Treat my problem like an illness and try to approach it as such.

Lol

Sep. 19th, 2017 07:04 pm
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Isha said Makayla had walked the into Monique snoring because she was so loud.

Okay, THAT doesn't sound like Monique. That might have been me. I know people have told me I snore pretty loudly. (I don't get HOW, since I don't have tonsils or adenoids. Also, I record myself sleeping sometimes - to try to catch me snoring and how bad, since people have woken me up less than an hour after me falling asleep to tell me I was being loud - and it never seems to catch snoring. It's like my brain doesn't do those bad habits when I'm watching myself.)

There's no way that happened recently though cuz we don't go in that room anymore. And well, I don't think I've slept during a shift in weeks. I kept getting more and more anxious about Monique's pattern. It's possible I dozed off once or twice during the time we were in that room.

However: Regardless, I'm now trying to research what legitimate ways there are to stop snoring.

Weekly Otherkin Chat Starting Now!

Sep. 20th, 2017 12:00 am
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Reminder: Weekly #otherkin chat starting now, in irc://irc.mibbit.net/dreamhart! Webclient here: http://dreamhart.org/chat/

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Sep. 19th, 2017 05:16 pm
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In a couple of hours I'm going to catch the Metro downtown to meet S at the airport as she is currently en route from San Francisco. When the plane first took off it was estimated to arrive about ten minutes early but maybe the wind changed direction because now the status page says it will be about two minutes late.

UGH

Sep. 19th, 2017 04:56 am
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Due to circumstances at work tonight I was convinced to go in and now my co-worker is sleeping again.

I resent letting my guilt and concern manipulate me that way.

Weekly Otherkin Chat 8pm EST Tonight

Sep. 19th, 2017 11:00 am
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Ana annoys me with how much she believes in conspiracy theories and how right-wing she is, but sometimes she manages to ask things that are eerily on-point with where my emotions are at.

... Granted, because she believes PCOS is a conspiracy to punish women by making them infertile and because she knows I'm in my thirties. But eerily on point with where a lot of my thoughts have been since that woman was telling me how much her life changed after she got pregnant and just generally feeling incredibly stuck and without choices in life.

Conversations I feel like I can't have with anyone. Like, if I have those conversations with anyone, they'll totally freak out. Either because my friends who are women will think I'm thinking seriously about trying, or the men in my life will be worried I'm going to ask them to be a sperm donor.*

Ana doesn't even know about the sexual dysfunction, I don't think. So the question from her is a lot more eery. Like if Alicia had asked, it's like, she knows I have this barrier in my life that sort of makes my life complicated in the family planning/starting aspect.

*I guess I'd be worried about that too. I guess it's not such a far-flung theory that if I ever went that route I'd want it to be someone I knew. But I usually find it's easier to talk to men about S.D. stuff.

OH MY GOD

Sep. 18th, 2017 11:40 pm
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Monique literally lost her shit when she found out I wasn't coming in tonight. I'd gotten permission from Isha around 6pm.

The real reason is that she's pissed off she won't get to sit there turning off her alarm and going back to sleep all night without getting up until 6:40am.

This was it. I decided even if it means sleeping privileges are revoked, I'm going to talk to Isha about how Monique oversleeps during the shift. I can't stand that she has the gall to do 1-2 checks the entire night last night and kept turning off her alarm and now she wants to whine that I'm not coming in again so she can do the same bullshit tonight.

I even pretended to fall asleep last night to see if she would do the checks? And she didn't. I literally saw her still turning off her alarm and going back to sleep. I still had to get up and do the checks because she wouldn't.

That's the only reason why I would want to cut my hours. It's not like I thought it'd be super awesome to make less money. It's because it's causing to much sleep deprivation and resentment of my co-worker.

Work:

Sep. 18th, 2017 06:26 pm
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I asked for tonight off, too.

I've decided when we don't need two staff I'll take 1-3 days off per week to ensure that when I am there, I am able to remain awake.

Like I don't want to rat out Monique because it would cause interpersonal conflict at work (and potentially make them more strictly enforce it being an 'AWAKE' shift whereas they have to date been currently lenient and let us work it among ourselves.) It's a lot easier to offer to divide shifts (like do three days/two days and then switch the next week) or come in less personally.

But it's not fair to basically see someone sleeping next to you all night and know that if you fall asleep that person isn't going to have the checks covered. If I need to be asleep, I won't come in, because I can't trust her to stay awake. I don't want to be liable for dozing off on someone who needs 10-30 minute checks.

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Sep. 18th, 2017 04:49 pm
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I thought it was going to be another fairly warm day today, but in fact I've been just barely warm enough all day in a t-shirt and shorts, and I had to put on some socks because my feet were cold. I love it, even though the humidity is very high. I went for an early run this morning (about 4.8 miles/7.5 km) and ended up almost completely drenched in sweat.

A few weeks ago (probably before I went to Australia) I bought some fabric printed all over with cats to make a pair of pj pants for Violet because she is a big cat lover. Today I finally got around to making a start on the pants. Well, technically I started last week by cutting them out, but today I sewed them together. Now all that's left is to hem the top and bottom and insert elastic. When Violet wears them I plan to tell her she's the cat's pyjamas.

Trick or Treat 2017 Letter

Sep. 18th, 2017 01:34 pm
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Hi trick-or-treater! Thank you for writing/drawing for me. In general, my taste in fiction runs "spooky but not too sad;" that is to say, I like horror, but I'm not a huge fan of downer endings or crapsack universes with no bright side to them. I don't mind sad stuff, but I do like to have it leavened a bit with caring and compassion.

As far as kinks/DNWs are concerned: I'd be happy to recieve stuff rated R and above, so that's not a concern. I love, love, love hurt/comfort and emotional intimacy (i.e. characters spilling their guts to each other, especially if they're usually the more stoic type) so that would be a major plus! I'd say my major squicks are animal death (that is, "onscreen" animal death - if it's just referenced offscreen, it's fine) incest, noncon, and permanent character death. I'd also prefer nothing sexual involving underaged characters, although I don't think that'll come up with any of my requests. I'm also not a big fan of AUs- canon divergence is cool, I'm just not big on coffeeshop-type stuff.

The Exorcist
Tomas Ortega, Marcus Keane, Katherine Rance


First of all: I am ALL THE WAY ON BOARD with Tomas/Marcus. Casefic? Smut? Weird skirting around their feelings while trying to cover it with jokes? Emotionally explosive confessions following a harrowing exorcism? GIMME. I love their mentor/mentee dynamic, and the fact that (as Ben Daniels has said in interviews) Tomas helps Marcus be more "human" than he's allowed himself to be in a long time. I also love that they both really, really want to do right by God, but their definitions of "doing right" come from different places - Tomas is all about social/community service and outreach, but Marcus is such a lone wolf. There's a lot of friction there, but there's also a ton of trust and caring and intimacy (the COLLAR scene, my word) and it's such a layered dynamic to play with.

Second: I requested Kat because one of the things I would have liked to see in season one that we didn't get is a scene of Marcus and Kat connecting - this show is so steeped in Catholicism, and they're the only canon LGBT characters, but we don't really see that explored. Marcus obviously doesn't give that much of a fuck, and we don't know much about Kat's personal life besides her burgeoning relationship with Julia. How do they each feel about their relationship with God? With the church and the Vatican and the Pope? What would they say to each other? We get the briefest glimpse of their dynamic, when Marcus tells Kat he'd never hurt her sister, but that's about it. We also see that Kat is fully prepared to go to extreme lengths to protect her loved ones (she smashed her own knee!) in a way that mirrors how far Marcus is willing to go in an exorcism. So what would they talk about? How would they work together? I'd prefer nothing romantic, but I'd love to see them bond.

Harlots (TV)

Amelia Scanwell, Violet Cross


This is the only canon that I only requested "treat" for, because I honestly can't think of any "trick" plots that could apply. What does apply is basically any expansion on what we see of them in canon - their relationship is very new, and they come from such different worlds, I'm curious to see where it could go. What would Violet think of Amelia's plan to open what's basically a halfway house for harlots? For that matter, how does Violet see her own profession, and how would she explain that to Amelia? How does Amelia herself view their relationship in the context of her upbringing and her faith, and how does she reconcile that? Or you could just write 300 words of them cuddling; that would also be fine!

The Black Tapes Podcast
Alex Reagan, Richard Strand

This is another dynamic where I love the push-pull aspect - Alex is always challenging Strand and pushing him to be more open than he's been in a long time, and Strand wants to deny the supernatural for the sake of his own sanity, but he also really seems to enjoy engaging with Alex when she challenges him. So - casefic? Late-night recording sessions with lots of banter? An investigation that lands them in more trouble than they were prepared for? Something silly and cracky, like Alex finally getting that dog and Strand being baffled by it? Anything!

Lynes and Mathey Series - Amy Griswold & Melissa Scott  
Ned Mathey, Julian Lynes

Casefic is also a big possibility with this one! Basically I love these books and I'd love to get more of the characters and their world in any form I can. Maybe they're out on a case on Halloween and things get spooky? Maybe an exploration of what ghosts look like in this universe, and how that might impact their work? (A victim contacting them from beyond the grave, for instance.) Or just something domestic or smutty or hurt/comfort-y.

Verge

Sep. 18th, 2017 08:19 am
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I am on the verge of having a frank discussion with Monique about how much she sleeps at work.

Tonight she kept turning her alarm off and continuing to sleep all night. She basically got seven hours of sleep. This has not been an unusual turn of events.

We both work 80+ hours/week, we both have dysfunctional home situations, it's not fair for one person to get all the sleep.

Of course, the other thing I've considered is simply taking more time off the night job whenever there are three clients or less. That way, if something happens, at least I'm not liable, whereas if she tells me she's doing checks and then she is simply sleeping the whole night, I am equally liable.

Progress

Sep. 18th, 2017 03:02 am
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My UCSD courses don't start until next week, so right now I'm just working on the TEFL course. I couldn't do it when my co-worker was watching iZombie, but she's currently asleep.

I also filled out a new C1 for my U.K. Passport. I just need to finish putting in my mother's address and her passport information, then ask her to get information that may be relevant for them (her marriage certificate to my father changing her surname, then the divorce paperwork, then the marriage certificate where she took her current husband's surname. It might be none of that is relevant because she probably has to put that information in when renewing her passport... But still.

I deleted POF/Tinder. I've come to the conclusion that men are depressing. Hundreds and hundreds of men 'like' me, in the hopes that they'll hook up, just as they are 'liking' every damn woman on those sites. I'm just going to try to get back to doing classes, going to the gym, etc. I'm not necessarily holding out for a serious relationship only - but I don't believe I'm likely to respect guys when I see evidence of the grazing approach. Like they couldn't care less about compatibility. Forever alone? Whatever. It's better than being depressed by a constant barrage of dudes hoping for a one-night stand.

Thoughts

Sep. 18th, 2017 12:14 am
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With regard to Jordan (as much as I'm trying to just completely mind-wipe myself about his existence), I think what happened with regard to him lying about "not meeting the language qualifications for CSU Fullerton/CSU LB" is that I don't think he applied to them. I think he probably tried to apply to a few UCs - the ones that were prestigious enough to fill the needs of his ego.

But the University of California requires two years of a foreign language. Hence he didn't get in. And then was embarrassed that he didn't apply. Or maybe he had lied to his parents and had told him he didn't get into any of those schools, and then kept that lie for everyone, not realizing what a bad lie that was, because the CSUs are far more numerous and everyone knows the key difference in transferring to a UC or a CSU is whether or not it requires a foreign language.

Anyway, he got into York in England, and that school is highly regarded, so it's not like his GPA wasn't high enough, it would be, as he said, just the language requirements.

(I've also considered that he may have intentionally did what he did to give himself an excuse to go back to Europe to complete his education, as European schools are considered more prestigious. And for all I know, he had a reason to want to go back to England. Be it homesickness, friends, a girl, whatever. But his ego seems enough on its own.)




I want to work on my TEFL course but I can't do it without headphones.

I was also looking at applying to UK Starbucks and working on BACP coursework.

It might make more sense to make an extended visit to my aunt and her husband's place, though, and figure my working situation out. I'd like to try to work in Italy, France, Spain, Germany, and Portugal. But I was thinking I'd like to stop by the UK a while first since technically I'm a citizen. Plus I could then work on counseling and BACP stuff while there. (I'd like to do coursework in those countries too? But only to learn the language.)

It'll probably be a lot easier to find work if already at least on the right continent.

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Sep. 17th, 2017 03:18 pm
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There's something sad and lonely about weekends when you're alone. Somehow the days seem purposeless, even when I'm doing useful things like laundry and grocery shopping. So today I decided to take myself out to use up some of those long hours. I went by Metro to Tyson's Corner to visit LL Bean, a 3 hour or so round trip. I wanted to look at LL Bean's selection of luggage, as the bag I've been using for about the last ten years is showing lots of signs of wear, and no wonder after several trips to and from Australia, a few to and from England, and a few domestic flights. I'm quite surprised the bag lasted as long as it did, considering how luggage gets thrown around by baggage handlers.

Anyway, I looked at various bags, rather hampered by an over-zealous store clerk who kept dashing over to show me things, which I always find super annoying. It makes me lose focus and I find it much harder to concentrate on what I really want to look for. Someone should tell people like her that more often than not, they're shooting themselves in the foot by interfering so much. I've been known to walk out without buying anything when there is somebody over-helpful hovering around even when I found something I wanted and would have bought it if left to myself. Today, however, I did not intend to buy a bag on the spot. I just wanted to look at them and see the quality for myself, then if I saw one I liked the look of, I would come home and order it online. As it happens, I did see one I liked, and I did come home and order it, but I didn't give Ms Officious the satisfaction of letting her know I was planning to do so.

After looking at bags I had an earlyish lunch; unfortunately it was rather forgettable. That's the second mediocre meal I've had while out in the last few days, which is a shame since I so rarely eat out. After I'd been to the dermatologist downtown I decided to have lunch at Union Station before coming home, so I went to a diner where I had a not-very-good chicken burger. The chicken itself was ok, but although the bun was advertised as being whole wheat it turned out to be soft squishy insubstantial white bread, to my disappointment. My lunch today was a quiche lorraine from a chain "French" restaurant. It wasn't very eggy - it seemed more like an egg custard, light on the eggs and heavy on some other liquid, and the stated flaky pastry wasn't very flaky. However, I did bring home from the same restaurant a lemon tart which was delicious. (I've just eaten it with a good cup of tea.)

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Sep. 17th, 2017 08:11 am
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[personal profile] analise010 is doing a one-card draw, or more cards for the price of a coffee.

Thoughts

Sep. 17th, 2017 01:06 am
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Thought #1: If I'm here until at least April, I should be able to get most of the CADC coursework done. And some of the nursing prerequisites.

Thought #2: I really like the one job, it's the other job I can't stand. I used to at least like the people there, but most of them are gone. I can't believe I have to do all this safety coach stuff I can never even do, either. Tomorrow and Monday I'm going to have to run around all over the place trying to collect paperwork. It's all freakin' hand-holding because managers don't see enforcing policy within departments as part of their jobs.

Honestly, they ducked it up. If the safety program had been a body of policies rewarding managers whose departments and staff pass audits and don't have injuries free days (and penalizing those who do) this wouldn't be a problem. Instead, they see a nag telling them to do stuff they have decided isn't part of their job. It's a freakin' joke.

Thought #3: I want to get the nursing prerequisites and CADC stuff done.

CCAPP claims it is valid in 47 countries but it doesn't list them anywhere. Kinda suspicious.

ETA: It's by getting the IC&RC tests done, but then you still have to live in California most of the year, which seems ridiculous. In the U.K. the equivalent program is BACP.